Look beneath the floorboards, for the secrets I have hid.

I wish it was morning already. I think that the only thing that I have to look forward to is for this day to be already over, and to try to sleep tomorrow and hope for a good dream to occur.

I know that it’s entirely my fault, and I hope that I don’t try to convince myself otherwise. I really hope this lack of sleep and aliment won’t affect my already tired brain. Sleepless nights are no fun. I feel already emotionally worn out, but most importantly, I am really scared of what my brain might think once this crap wears off.

“Of course I love you. It is my fault that you have not known it all the while. That is of no importance. But you–you have been just as foolish as I. Try to be happy…”

-The Little Prince

Maybe you’re right

Maybe I’ll never find someone who will live to my expectations.

Giving up.

Should be a fun day.

This situation with dreams and shit is really starting to get to me. What is a dream really? If they are entirely controlled by the subconscious section of our brains, wouldn’t that mean that our dreams represent something that is really hidden between our every day thoughts? I’d love to think so. “In dreams emotions are overwhelming.” But at the same time I really can never connect my dreams with reality. And the main reason is really cause I don’t really want to make the connection. I’ve given you up.

Things will turn out the way you want, if you just stop doubting that I love you. Call me next door.

Can I has N3rd blog Plz? kthxbie

Oh 2P take my control and teach me how to not fall and die. I bet you’ll know how to find those xtra 99x lives,  So teach me so I won’t be afraid to die.  Cause every time man, it’s like “Whoa! Princess isn’t here… she’s hiding out in another castle with all her fears…”

Reset? can’t reset this feeling. This is GAME OVER. This game is over, this game is overrated…

 

New Monkey.

Has anyone ever heard “I’m the one you need” by the Jackson 5? wait… who the hell am I talking to, and why am I still talking in a 2nd person form?

Ugh anyways. I believe that this song is so beyond his era, and that’s the same thing that happened to me when I first heard “Sgt Pepper Lonely Hearts Club’s Reprise” that song is so ahead of its time.

“And when you feel the need to cry to someone, cry to me.
And when you feel the need to lean on someone, lean on me.
I might not be the one that you want but I’m sure that I’m the one you need”

I think that they realized waaaay later that he deserved a Grammy for that song, so they overcompensated him with 5 awards for Thriller.

Anyways, girls are really confusing, and the only stupid answer that I get from one of my close female friends is “She’s a girl, she has the right to feel that way and be confused”. I need explanations, as to why girls like the suspense of stretching a guy and bend him backwards just for their entertainment. Yeah I know my idea sounds even dumber but I haven’t found any other reason behind it.
I want to be a fine looking asshole sometimes. Either that or, God!, I need money.

What

a powerful thing you are, seriously.

I keep telling me it’s fine. I know that it is not remotely true. God, I miss you.

Don’t judge.

I like to keep this as a secret. And I’ve noticed that this blog has only been viewed 35 times so far. So I guess it’ll do.

It’s kinda weird to think about all the crazy things that I do. And it’s even weirded when I’m trying to explain someone all those weird things that I try to do. I always get misinterpreted as being boring or retarded, or at least that’s the impression that I get from most people.
I wasn’t born in a fancy big city, I don’t really enjoy plays. I don’t like opera, or musical shows at all. I feel that if I was up to me, I’d just leave and go live in the country. It’s not that I hate people at this time, I love my friends, I think that the group of friends that I have a the moment [or the main ones that I see on a constant basis] are amazing, and I trust them with everything. It’s just that there’s still a connection with my past, and sometimes I feel that I neglect it WAY too much.

I guess I never grew up, I’m still like a little kid. I’m a really simple guy who enjoys simple things in life. As retarded as that might sound I think that I could change any day of my life just to spend a whole another day as a kid, when it wasn’t weird to just spend a whole day outside doing things like playing on the fields, riding a bicycle going nowhere at all. Going to the beach aaaaaaall day and not come back till after dark. I wish I someday I find someone meaningful in my life and share all these things. Someone who can understand where I come from, the things that I enjoy, and learn how to appreciate the simplest things in life. Which I believe could be the source of all Happiness, and not just for me.

p.s. I still want to become a Taxi Driver.

pure wisdom

Taking advantage of people when they’re vulnerable results in bad karma
[That’s true]

There is a cost to anything that is worthwhile in life.
[I hope it don’t cost too much, oh]

When starting an adventure, be prepared for a long period of putting in before you can begin taking anything out
[I will, I will, thanks for the advice]

Stamina can be your best trait, because it can help you weather the storms
[It’s like a raincoat made of fabric, emotional fabric]

In business, if you give a little bit more for a little bit less, you are more likely to stay in business
[If you’re selling pizza give a bigger slice for the same price that would be nice]

When you see a behavior in a person that you don’t like, chances are you will be seeing it again; keep your distance.
[I will, all the douche bags please back off]

When it comes to dating and marriage, the good news is you only need one
[Hope I get a hot one]
That’s what I tell all the kids who are fretting, you don’t have a boyfriend or girlfriend I say I know it’s tough but you know you only need one so
[Break it down Lillian]
keep working at it. It’s not like you need to get a new one every week
[it’s the numbers game, you only need one maybe two]

Be careful who you step on going up the ladder, because you’ll need them on the way down
[I’ll avoid the ladders of the corporate kind]

Every organization takes on the character of it’s leader
[Uh-oh, America]

You need to be a friend to have a friend
[Unless you’re really cool, that’s a loophole]

All good deeds are rewarded, but we may not like the time table
[Want it now karma, now now]

I don’t believe that nice guys finish last
[They finish somewhere in the middle, maybe near the front, definitely not the last place]

Slow and steady will get you there a lot faster
[Like the turtle or a fat guy on a moped, you’re in place to place]

Your best quality is your worst quality
[Unless you’re a pedophile]

Finally, the golden rule says it all
[Golden people rule!]

And she is still wonders why i’m so insecure…

there was a girl emphasis on the ‘L’
she was noticin the detail as well
and the two of us found something with each other
previously undiscovered
hell is full of lovers
and the daylight is bright always makes me squint
but it feels like magic when it touches my face
suffocate myself
overwhelm myself
and let the sunrays abandon me floating through space.

then there was this one night
I stopped to watch someone bite the tip of a cigarette
to hold it in between her lips
never met nobody like her please brace yourself
danger danger
this might hurt
the playground feels a lot different when the sun’s out
she wasn’t messin round she came in with her guns out
screamin bout the ocean
anybody wanna go with me
never knew punk rock could be so pretty
now catch your breath and then catch the ball
and sit by the phone so you can catch the call
write catchy one-liners on the bathroom stall
here I go wouldn’t you know
still learning to crawl.

hahaha

ulises brambila (1:54:00 AM): she’s really smart, and she’s reaaaally pretty
ArtOfNothing56 (1:54:10 AM): awwww
ArtOfNothing56 (1:54:17 AM): uli has a crushy poo
ulises brambila (1:54:42 AM): haha i think THAT is why i never tell you things like that…